Day 6
Boooyah! so, the drinking i think was a success as you can see. I had a dream last night that I had a puff and then that i had relapsed. then when i woke up i wasn’t sure if i had had a puff, but i didn’t. so all is well! when through some short periods today where i wasn’t thinking about smoking, e.g. i went to the store and wasn’t thinking “i could just buy a pouch, go on, what damage will a pouch do?” as allen carr’s book and freedom from nicotine say, don’t think of just one cigarette. one cigarette doesn’t exist. it is all the others that come after. one cigarette only reignites the subconscious mind’s belief that cigarettes are as essential as food, when, they’re not. also, was looking at some of those time line things for how your body repairs itself, but it was pretty depressing in a way. whilst it is nice to know that in one year risk of heart disease and attack reduces by half, the risk of lung cancer never reduces to that of a never smoker. bummer. but at least all the time i’m not smoking, it is constantly reducing. wahey!
